I don’t know when, exactly, I stopped consciously filtering the things I say. My daughter is almost 12 now, and once I knew that she’d heard every curse word possible (and knew their meanings) I figured I no longer needed to substitute what I wanted to say with a “shoot”, “heck”, or “fudge”. And even though she knows all the real words, she’ll still, of course, say “shizzle” in front of me. (‘Cuz she undoubtedly knows that I’ll kill her if she says the real thing.) But I, on the other hand, have tended to disregard my personal filter.
Now, however, I also have a baby in the house. My daughter may be getting into her pre-teen years, but now I have my son to look after. I know that kids are little sponges that pick up everything you say – and will likely repeat. But while my son is still too young to speak, I’d better get a handle on my choice of words ASAP.
This one is going to be hard. I’ve already failed twice today. 😦 But, I’ve also filtered a few times too. It’s all about thinking about what you are about to say and consciously making the decision to change course. At least I can recognize that I have a problem. That’s the first step to recovery, right? That’s it, I’m starting a swear jar at home! I’ll call it my “New Shoes Fund”, that’ll keep me motivated. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. Fudge!